May 27, 2025
HI GUYSSSSS omggg i know i literally say this on every post but it's been SUCH a long time since i last posted on here... i never said my blogs were gonna have a regular schedule tho!!
i FINALLY finished my semester which i never thought was going to end. so much shit has gone on these past few months it's been insane. firstly my twitter account @Xx_SxWxAxG_xX got HACKED back in march because i very stupidly fell for a "report" scam and i effectively lost access to that account :( so if u still follow it and see it post anything or send u any dm's DO NOT interact with it or do what it says that is NOT me!! i'm currently using a private account to browse and post on twitter while i find a way to make a new public account but in the meantime you can follow me on bluesky @loonappears.bsky.social. I don't rlly use bsky as much anymore even though i said i wanted to ditch twitter for it bcuz a lot of my twitter mutuals haven't made the switch to bsky yet which makes it feel a bit empty. and then you have twitter which is just full of right-wing propaganda, AI and porn bots. so idk. i think i'm just a masochist at this point.
on a much sadder note, on the first day of april we unfortunately had to say goodbye to our beloved cat Pepper. she had been acting a bit off in the days prior, as in she seemed very lethargic and wasn't moving as much. also she was letting us pet her and grab her easily and usually she was a little rude spanish bitch and scratched and bit us all over for it so that was really weird too. she wasn't eating and the little she did eat she threw it up. when we finally took her to the vet that day, we were told that she was very ill but needed further examination to determine what was really going on. we took her to another vet which had more resources to do that and we were pretty much told that our Pepper was simply too far gone and that there wasn't really much we could do. it was one of the most devastating moments of my life because we relatively hadn't had Pepper for that long, we only got her back in late 2020 compared to Ginger which we got in early 2017. it really felt like the world was crumbling around me because that morning i woke up thinking that it would've been a normal visit to the vet and i would leave with meds for my cat to get better, only to be told that she really didn't have much time left. there was treatment available but it was expensive and didn't cure her, it only would make her feel better during the little time she had left, so that night we made the very hard decision to put her to sleep. i found a bit of solace in knowing that there really wasnt much that we could've done; the vet told us that her illness had been with her practically since she was born. but god. it's really something that nothing can prepare you for. it's been almost 2 months and we've received her ashes which i have displayed in my bedroom, next to this really cute cat lamp i got as a free gift one time i went to Forever 21 (RIP to that too). it's funny how something that was originally a novelty tchotchke took on such significance. i'm more at peace with Pepper's passing now because i know she's no longer suffering from all of the ailments that had been troubling her for so long, but i still miss her every day and sometimes i think i see her in the hallway. we have unofficially adopted a street cat named Cookie (we love food) since then which comes over to our house to eat from the food we leave him on our front porch, and while he's obviously not replacing Pepper, he helps fill that void she left when she passed. love u & miss u 4ever Pepper, thank you for those 4 years we had together... ❤️
ONTO MORE HAPPY NEWS i will be seeing Lady Gaga this September on her Mayhem Tour!!!! I AM SOOOOO EXCITED bcuz i've loved her since i was a kid and i've always wanted to see her live in concert!! i originally hesitated a bit because it would require for me to travel and the tickets sold out really fast, but i decided that after all that's gone on in my life this past year i would at the very least treat myself to a little vacation, so i will be traveling to Florida to see her. i have family there so there's no need to book a hotel + i got a pretty good deal on the flight so i really ended up spending more on the tickets for the concert since they were resale. but tbh? i know it's gonna be worth it. i love gaga's music and know practically all of her songs, and i know she's gonna put on a great show! since i got the tickets i've been counting down the days and i just cannot wait!! it will also be the first time i'm visiting Miami so i'm also looking forward to that!
i feel like lately i've been listening to more newer music than before. there was a moment when i would listen to almost exclusively older songs but recently i've actually been interested in more current releases! specifically i've had in my rotation f5ve's debut album "SEQUENCE 01" as well as KATSEYE's comeback single "Gnarly." i know "Gnarly" has been super polarizing but it's an earworm if i've ever heard one... to me it's not meant to be taken seriously at all and considering it draws heavy inspo from hyperpop which generally tends to have more abstract and/or unserious lyrics that's not surprising to me. anywayssss here's a list of a few songs that r on my current rotaysh for yall to check out ~~
and as always you can go check out the JUANOGAYO section for more of the songs that i've been into lately!
N E WAYS that'll be all!! PEACE.
