February 21, 2025
FINALLY the first post of 2025 and it comes as February is almost ending! HAPPY NEW YEAR AND HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!
how's your 2025 been so far? for me, i've felt extremely spread out. i feel like i barely have time to do anything outside of classes and work without it affecting my sleep schedule. fortunately today i have NONE of those so i can stay up until 3am (current time) without worrying about how i'm gonna be the next day <3
2025 has been extremely bleak so far, not just in my personal life, but looking at world events. Trump has (unsurprisingly) began to terrorize America and the world and he's only been president again for like a month. Someone with a MAGA hat came to my work the other day. it was such a jumpscare, i'm glad he didn't end up buying anything... to me supporting Trump represents a lack of respect, towards yourself and towards others. Trump doesn't like anybody but himself and people who are like him i'm convinced, and it shows in the policies he keeps trying to push. the whole "Gulf of America" thing is ridiculous (i'm never calling it that unironically), the whole two genders thing is ridiculous and not to mentioned BOTCHED with the way he unintentionally stated that everyone in america is female, the deportations, the employee and budget cuts he's proposing.... and the cherry on top of the turd is people who voted for him already regretting it. literally idiots. and all in the name of combatting ""the woke agenda"". girl.
i'm gonna be SO honest i've been feeling really shit about myself lately in a way that i havent felt ever before. just doubting my ability to do anything right, mainly because i just don't wanna do anything at all. when you keep doing things just because you have to and not because you feel motivated to it just weighs you down so severely. i wish i felt more motivated, i wish i was more organized and i wish i had more initiative to do things. being an adult is hitting me like a BRICK right now like my GOD!
but of course it's not all bad. i don't know where i would be without music! i'm rlly looking forward to lady gaga's new album coming out next month, i will def be preordering it when i get paid! already am OBSESSED with "abracadabra" (which hit #1 for 2 weeks on juanogayo!)
anyways i'm gonna wrap this post up already cuz i'm kinda sleeepyyyy zzzzzz good night yall!
